friendships

sometimes i think that friendships are such a complex things... why is it that we have a tough time communicating with each other even on simple things? why is it that we dont tell each other what we dont like about each other straight in their face or a text? why is it thaf when friendship is put to test then you will know who are real friends and fake friends? why is it that its so hard to maintain a friendship? there are just so many "why"s for one simple lovely thing, friendship.

love is crap

"I like you. You like her. She likes him. He likes her." And this whole cycle continues. It hurts knowing this...

Personal story: The guy i loved, loves another girl and finally got together and breaking our friendship. Why...?
I was the one who loved you, cared for you, made you my first priority and gave you all my time. But yet after so much i have done and so much effort i have put in, she was enough to take away everything i wanted with just 1 word "yes" to your feelings. And i lost everything i needed and wanted. Every time my phone rings, i wish your name would appear on my screen even though its one in a million chance already. I saw you that day, looking so down and i knew you were upset but yet when she came by, you forced yourself to smile. Why do you need to go to such length for her? Was she really worth it? When i was the one who stayed when you fought with her and listened to all your problems till 2am and stayed whenever you needed someone. But yet you chose her not me and even broke our friendship. You were the one who promised you were going to stay and you will never leave. And it was all fake i guess. This probably haunted me so much and so bad that till this point of my life, i stopped trusting anyone. I tried again and again but at the end of the day, i still get betrayed again and again. Would it be easier if i didnt exist? Died? Drown? Disappear? I wished.

Tired

There are days where things just doesn't seems to go smoothly. And those are the bad days in your life. There are also days where things are in place just like you wanted. And those are the good days in your life.
And when it comes to the bad days in your life, i wish i can be there to support you and comfort you. And when its the good days, i wish i can be the one who can smile and laugh by your side.