It's been so happening recently in my life.
I start to detach myself more and more from everyone and everything.
As days goes by with all sort of different drama people come up with, the more detach I become to every single person.
I no longer have any strength to argue or fight back for my stand.
I no longer get upset for the hurtful words said.
I no longer get angry for the dumb things done.
I no longer be genuinely happy for anything.
I no longer laugh wholeheartedly at the jokes being said.
I no longer want to step a step further for everyone or anyone.
I no longer want to talk more to anyone about myself.
I no longer want to even know more about anything.
I just want to do what I have to do.
I just want to finish what I must finish.
I just want to leave once time's up.
I just became someone who is emotionless.
I smile when I need to.
I laugh when required.
I talk when I have to.
If not, then I'll stay silent.
As the misunderstanding gets bigger, the lesser I want to explain or bother anymore. I am tired so are you. I am drained out from being extra careful around you and not wanting to make any mistakes but at the end, every little things I do still irritates the shit out of you. I am done. It is more than enough that I know I can handle already. I won't find any explanations for whatever the others said to you about me. No point explaining if your mind thinks the same way as them even though we are a team. Explanation will only make things worse since you think that I am "young immature kid" then... But I guess it's the way this should end cause I no longer find any strength to argue or even feel any emotions to the things happening around me.
To you whom I cared the most... I held onto you for so long for so many wrong reasons. You constantly proved me wrong about why I should hold onto you. After so long, you were the most toxic person to me yet I held onto you like you were my everything. Little did I know, you were the one who stabbed me at the back. With every words that you said out about me to others, thank you for making the misunderstanding deeper and deeper. But I held no grudges against you cause I still love you. However, I can't carry on anymore. Let's go back to the very first time when we met. I didn't love you. You didn't care. Held on for so long and finally you cut off the very last strand of love I have for you. Thank you babe.
