It seems to be something wrong with me. But is not like there's a legit problem with myself too.
I told one of my bestfriend this " can i be a burden to talk to " in the middle of the night cause I feel bad for bothering him. And he said " you know you will never be a burden to me right? "
So today, another of my bestfriend jokingly requested for a cake from me and then said " i am joking. I dont want to be a burden ". And this time, I am the one who replied " you will never ever be a burden to me "
Feeling so dumbfounded when one of my own bestfriends said something thats exactly the same as me to another of my bestfriend. Like whats wrong with helping your own friends? Or like is it wrong to accept help?
Why does it seems that I am willing to help others but it never seems to be right for myself to be help by others ?¿? I am such a weirdo. It just seems to me that I am never good enough to be at a level to bother others without thinking that I am a hassel // burden or apologizing for bothering others when they help me. Thats why it hurts me so badly when one of them leaves me cause I am willing to go very far just for any of them but it will never seems enough cause someone else better will come along and replace me.
