2016

30th Dec'16.

It was tiring to hang on till now. I made so many mistakes and wrong decisions for my own future and regretting every single shit that I should have done and what I had done. (AND EVERYTHING FROM HERE ON DOESN'T LINK)  As much as I have done wrong, I want to make things right again. The path to recovery from self-harm seems far but I know something for sure is that I am making efforts to recover even if it's just small steps. I lost countless of friendship that was once important to me and I also made countless of new friends that seems to be taking up bits and parts of my life. I saw this post on Instagram.

It wrote "Instead of saying 'Sorry', changed it to 'Thank You'. So instead of saying "Sorry I am late." say, "Thank you for waiting for me". Instead of saying "Sorry I only make things worse/ i screwed up stuffs" say, "Thank you for the unconditional love and care to help me get by" Then I think back how I always say sorry and somehow ruined the mood most of the time and thought maybe 2017 is the time I should change. I should start showing my gratitude more instead of apologizing for everything (UNLESS I DO SHIT WRONGLY)

To my close friends/ not so close friends/not friends anymore,

Thank you for being part of my life. Maybe there are times I am not good enough and there are times that I was the reason why we aren't friends anymore but I want to let you know that I am glad that I met you guys. Some of you have played a huge part in my secondary school life while some of you played a huge part in my poly/shatec life. I wish all the best for everything you guys are doing in life and hope that you are happy :)

Signing off,
Steph

Poly mates

NURULLL <3

luqmannnn  :)

E24A

cutiepie juniors
my source of happiness after grad

my favs from D3

javierrrr :)

cool gang

:")

16THHHHH

chairperson 

EEEEE the 5 of us again + 1

primary/sec sch buddy

class buddies'16

class photoshoot 

Ruan gang :')

calvin shifu

#TeamPublication

Seniors

D3 

Melllll <3

we k00l

To my best friend-s,

Instead for saying sorry to you about how fucked up I have been, I want to say thank you for always staying by my side. I want to thank you for showing me unconditional love, care and concern. I want to say thank you for understanding me. I want to say thank you for being there when I needed. I want to say thank you for taking care of me. I want to say thank you for all the small little things you did for me. I want to thank you for allowing me be myself around you. I want to thank you because without you, I probably won't be here still. Lastly, I want to say thank you for being my best friend and your existence in my life.

I know I may not be the best for you. I know I screw up lots of stuffs. I know I tend to push you away from me. I know at times I would build up wall against you. I know at times my words are harsh and stupid. But I also know that I only want the best for you and I cared about your happiness more than mine.

I hope we will be able to go on longer and become adults together yet still by your side no matter how long time have passed. I love you.

Lots of love,
Steph.

Thank you Ariel.
Ps: I dont even know what to say to you already. Honestly, you're the only one whom I keep in touch the most and is the closest to even if we are in different school. Lets continue on till we are 100 years old. 

Thank you Brian.
Ps: Even thou we don't see each other often nor do we talk often,
I know something for sure that if i ever needed help, you;ll be there.

Thank you Bryan.
Ps: I know we don't talk that much anymore but I know that whenever
 I have problems and needed advice, you'll be there. And I want you to know that
I'll be here for you like how I always was even in the middle of the night.  

Thank you Siang Yeo.

Ps: Especially for this thing :') Thank you for being there for me 24/7 and I know I am not the best and probably the worst but I wish our friendship would last. I promise you that I would start to open up again and learn how to accept people and appreciate their help. And of course, thank you for your unconditional love and care since then till now. I hope we can remain as best friend even if time passed.