Feeling so drained out with so many things due to myself. Why myself? Because I have a very bad and short temper ; I'll get angry easily and shows it all on my face. I detest that part of me so much ; so much that I wished I can just disappear.
Whenever someone points that fact out, it actually gets to me cause I hate myself for it but I am trying. I am trying not to get angry easily. I am trying to stay calm instead of showing temper. I am trying so hard that it literally drains my energy out.
Someone who knows me well told me recently that my temper got better. I no longer give reaction to what bullshit is faced. But yet she asked why I stop reacting to those bullshit. It's not that I stop reacting but I guess sometimes it's better to just keep quiet instead of fighting back.
I learnt that even if I react, it won’t change anything, it won’t make people suddenly love and respect me, it won’t magically change their minds. Sometimes it’s better to just let things be, let people go, don’t fight for closure, don’t ask for explanations, don’t chase answers and don’t expect people to understand where you’re coming from.
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