First yet the last

I wanna be the first one who can make you smile when you are upset.
I wanna be the first one who will stay be your side when you need someone.
I wanna be the first one you find when you have problem.
I wanna be the first one you cry onto when you need a shoulder.
I wanna be the first one to know whatever happens to you that makes you sad.
I wanna be the first one you text when something make you happy.
I wanna be the first one you call up when you are in trouble.
I wanna be the first one and also the last one you love.

But it have never seem to be this way.

I am always the last person who can try to cheer you up.
I am always the last person there for you.
I am always the last person you find when you have problem.
I am always the last person you cry onto when you need a shoulder.
I am always the last person to know something happened to you.
I am always the last person you will text
I am always the last person you will call up.
I am never the first and last you love.

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